So, after much consideration, I have decided to stop uploading. About two and a half years ago, life just sort of swept me up and told me I wasn't going to get any work done because I had other pressing obligations to focus on. For a long time, I kept telling myself I would get back into writing when I had the time, but then I never seemed to have the time. Those pressing obligations I mentioned had me so stressed out that even if I wanted to write, I couldn't. Thinking of how much I wasn't writing, wasn't posting, stressed me out even more, and it became a vicious cycle of self-doubt and procrastination. I admit, I've scratched out a few things here and there, but nothing like I'd imagined I wanted to post here. A lot of stuff happened in between, good things and bad, and to be honest I actually came to the conclusion that I just don't have the time or energy to sit down and devote to writing. Simple as that. I love it. I love scratching out a story now and again and seeing everyone's reaction to it, but I'm not that dedicated. Instead, I've begun focusing on my real passion, what I do have the drive to set aside time for: art. I've been posting quite a lot of that, both on my other dA account and on Tumblr. Occasionally, I've come back to this account, poked around a bit, wistfully considered getting back into writing... and then just as quickly decided against it. Mostly I come back here to keep up with the newest work of the artists I watch, but even that I've let back up to ludicrous levels. So at the end, my conclusion is this: it's unlikely you'll see any new posts from me here. I'm still on dA, but not in a writing capacity, and you can always find me on Tumblr if you're so inclined. If nothing else, making this account helped me gain the courage to make an account for my art, as I was very self-conscious of my artwork at the time and figured writing would be a suitable stand-in (oh how naive my 22-year-old self was!)
Overall, I don't feel disappointed in myself. I actually feel quite relieved. I've stopped deluding myself that I'll post something when I know I won't. At least I'm finally off the fence. (I may be misinformed, but recently I heard it's best not to post what you intend to publish, either, and there are a couple pieces I'd like to rework at some point for that possibility.) I will be leaving up most of my deviations, but don't be surprised if a few disappear. In any case, to the artists, I thank you for inspiring me. To my own watchers, I thank you for taking the time to watch me and to offer your comments now and again. I hope you aren't disappointed. Writing, for me, simply isn't as fun or as interesting anymore.